Wednesday October 01, 2008
Not To Be Sniffed At:
Support Group For Cocaine Addicts Opens
by Simon Magus
Cocaine use has rise to such high levels in Scotland that a new support group for addicts is opening in Perth.
Alan, a 28-year-old recovering addict, has played a key role in bringing Cocaine Anonymous to the Scottish town.
"This is the first time since childhood I have been clean for so long," he said.
"I was in a really bad mess prior to that and the Cocaine Anonymous fellowship has changed my life."
"From a very young age I was involved in drink and drugs and became a regular user when I was about 12 or 13."
"I started off with cannabis but soon progressed on to ecstasy and speed."
"When I was young cocaine was unaffordable, I simply couldn't afford a gram of coke at £50 to £60," Alan revealed.
"Cocaine's come down in price and earnings have gone up and I know people in my own family that are 17 or 18 who tell me they've gone out and went half on a gram at £20."
"When I was young I looked around the clubs and it was the city high flyers who were on coke."
" I called it the rich man's drug, but it's become so much more attainable -- so much more affordable to the public."
Alan eventually married and started a family, but a stable home life did not prevent him abusing alcohol and drugs.
"I worked in a warehouse and everything I earned went on drink and drugs," he confessed.
"It got so bad that I could pop out for a paper on a Sunday and not come back until Tuesday or Wednesday -- I really felt as if I was drinking and using drugs against my will."
His drug use increased along with his debts -- which eventually led him to begin dealing.
"I started selling drugs but only turned a profit in the first week," Alan said.
"After about a month I was my only customer -- I was surrounded by mountains of powder and taking it all myself."
Desperate for help, Alan turned to drug support agencies -- but to no avail.
It was only when he encountered Cocaine Anonymous that he began to recover.
"I tried everything to get help but nothing worked and I started to think the best thing I could do would be to take my own life," said Alan.
"I felt it would be better for my family that way."
"I was literally at the stage of wondering how to kill myself while making it look like an accident so my family did not feel as if it could have been prevented."
"While I was sat in front of the computer feeling utterly desperate I typed ‘cocaine’ and ‘anonymous’ into a search engine and found the fellowship."
"I discovered there was a meeting in Glasgow that night and just went straight out to the car and drove through."
Alan found the support he needed and embarked on the 12-step programme.
"It was an addict helping another addict -- they felt like I felt, they acted as I acted, they did what I did," he stated.
"When I could see people who were very similar to me recovering I just believed, 'Well if it can work for them, why can't it work for me?'
He found that being clean was not the ordeal that he was expecting.
"I used to think life would be boring without drink and drugs but nothing could be further from the truth," admitted Alan.
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